Toes

Katie is teaching me how to add things to my blog that are cool!! hahaaha But actually I just have her do it for me.. hha newho here is a WAY cute video of Isabel in the NICU... Look how cute her toes are and her EXTRA long fingers!!

Little Iz

I had a lot of random pictures of Isabel when she was tiny, but none of them really would make a good page, so I stuck them all together! I don't have that many pictures of when she was tiny because I pretty much held her all day! So here are the last of the tiny pics I have, I know Kenna and Kilee have more, so until I get those, I'm done scrapping Izzy's little pics hehe.

Sad News.

I miscarried my baby today. I just wanted to say something about it to help me grieve. This has been an emotional roller coaster week, not knowing what was going to happen. We think it was an ectopic pregnancy. I was 7 or 8 weeks along. My sister bought me a book with my last miscarriages, before Isabel, called Gone Too Soon. It is written by a LDS woman and it really has helped me. This is one of the steps to coping, sharing your feelings :). Here is a poem from the book I would like to share because I think it explains how it feels too loose a baby:

For those few weeks--
I had you to myself
And that seems too short a time
to be changed so profoundly.

In those few weeks--
I came to know you
and to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks--
When I lost you.
I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams, and aspirations...
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks--
It wasn't enough time to convince others
how special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.

Just a mere few weeks--
And no "normal" person would cry all night
over a tiny, unfinshed baby,
or get depressed and withdrawn day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?

You were just those few weeks my little one
you darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer
and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

Poem Copyright 1984 by Susan Erling Martinez

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I just like to hope that there is a larger plan for me than I can see, and that one day I will get to meet all my unborn babies that I never got to see. I just go on knowing that some day I will know the complete purpose of my babies lives and their brief passages in and out of mine. I know there is a greater purpose and that the Lord will never give you greater burdens than you can bare. These experiences have made me and stronger person, strengthened my testimony, and made me appreciate my husband and my Isabel more and more each day. I'm sorry this entry is quite depressing, but I really needed to get my feelings out there. Thanks!

Old Pictures!

So Katie wanted me to post old pics of like Moo, and our Wedding, etc... So I was looking through my pictures and I saw this picture! I thought it was so stinkin cute! It's when I got my tonsils out and Moo stayed right by me the whole week cause I was so sick! Such a sweet little dog! I just love him! I will probably make a mini scrapbook of him eventually seeing how he was my first child hahah!

This is me and Trevor on our Wedding Anniversary at Daniels Summit. I HIGHLY recommend going there! It was one of the best places I've ever been. Its just in Heber. It was very romantic and VERY RELAXING.

These pics really are totally random but here are some funny ones of Trev shoveling snow and moo helping him--

So now you're probably thinking .. .POOR DOG, gets dressed up in clothes... but the funny thing is, that Moo LOVES the snow, BUT he gets WAY too cold and he just tips over in the snow when his feet get too cold and you have to run and pick him up. So I got him some winter clothes so he could play in the snow with Trev for as long as he wants... Some day I'll put a video on here of him running in his snow shoes... Its SOOO FUNNY!

That's all for now... kinda fun to look back at old pictures!!

My New Friend

So Isabel was taking a bath the other day and she saw her reflection and it was the cutest thing ever! Now she always talks to herself and shows herself her toys and stuff! So stinkin CUTE!

Very COLD beach

Okay so I was trying something new on these pages, testing out fading and pics as backgrounds...etc... I'm not too sure how I feel about them... but oh well here they are! "We went to see Jon’s Marine graduation in San Diego. The first time that Jon got to go out with us we decided to visit a very beautiful beach that is close to the MCRD. It was so cold! We had to keep you bundled up the whole time so you didn’t get to play in the sand. It was so windy that your cute little nose was bright red the whole time! Daddy showed you the sunset and you loved watching all the beautiful colors. The first time you went to this beach you were in my belly! Everytime we’ve been to that beach it’s been too cold to play in the water! That night we took you for a stroll to all the shops along the beach withTyler and Kilee. It was a very pretty evening!"

More Lake Powell

Here is Iz with her Grandpa Wagner.... they have a lot of fun together!

Lake Powell

We took Isabel to Lake Powell for the first time! We had lots of fun! But most of the pictures we got she looks miserable! Too Funny!! Oh well, I promise it was fun!

Funny Phases!

Isabel is in the funniest phase right now! She keeps making this STRANGE face! I don't know where she learned it but I think it's sooo funny! Another thing she always does is puckers up her lips ALL THE TIME! You will probably notice this in future pictures to come, I was looking through our pics, deciding what to scrap next, and I noticed her lips are puckered in so many pictures!! She's a NUT!

We bought Isabel her first sunglasses and she was HILLARIOUS! We took her to the St. George Parade of Homes. It was SO HOT! So we had her wear sunglasses! She loved them! Everyone at the homes couldn't believe she would actually wear sunglasses all around! She wore them outside, and into every house we went to! TOO FUNNY!

Bursting with Personality

I had to do a page of all of Izzy's funny faces. Everyone ALWAYS comments about the funny faces she makes and the funny things she does with her lips. Her personality is so strong even at 10 months. She is so strong willed and mischievous! She LOVES doing exactly what you tell her not to do. If you say no, she has to do it 50 more times!

Spring Time

I totally almost forgot that I did these pages! I can't believe myself! Kilee took these pictures and I think they are sooo CUTE! Way to go KILEE!!! Now I just need to get all your other ones again :( hehe

Grandmas are so FUN!

I had to scrap all the pictures of Iz playing with my mom on the couch because I thought they were so funny! I lost a lot of pictures of Iz playing with Kenna when our other site went down, so I need to get them off of the Wagner's computer again, I'm totally bummed! They have so many cute pictures of Isabel, and so does Kilee... :( I'll have to burn them all to a cd.. :) Kilee is so good at always having her camera ALL THE TIME! I love it! That's one area I definately need to improve, I always kick myself later for not getting a picture of something. Anywho, I hope you enjoy these ones!

Mom and Me

Doesn't she have the most amazing eye color?
Okay, I'm always kissing Iz, in like EVERY picture, but look at those cheeks!! I can't help it!

More Pictures

Fun in the Sun

Isn't she so stinkin cute in her swim suit? She LOVE LOVE LOVES the water!

Princesses, Food, and Patty Cake

Here are some more Pics!